sUmThInG aBt a fAiThFuL gUy

:: Pros ::

2004-10-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

k now DoW has emerged the Pros liao.. i dunno y i got so shitty connection.. i cant ladder.. i dunno y also.. thursday getting SCV liao hope the connection better.. =p kinda boring la.. anyway.. not many ppl come me blog le.. so maybe i shall end my blog also.. i'm too into getting this game mastered.. anyway.. Playing SM and EL now.. specialising in 2 races is better than 1.. anyway.. getting bored w/ EL le.. even duh freaking flexible race after patch.. =p

:: Clan Focus ::

2004-10-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

k.. i'm getting into seroius business now.. i'm setting up a clan with a hk guy age 16 for my game DoW.. forum is up.. recuitment is good to go.. just need him to get sponsors.. n the most impt thing is!!!!... i'll be becoming a pro-gamer for DoW!!!!... i guess the decision of buying this game is just right... =p

:: buGGers/winning fine ::

2004-10-18T16:21:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm win rate kinda stable now.. lol 68%... kinda okie for me.. trying to get to 80%.. if u guys dunno wad i talkong about.. i'm talking about the win rate in Dawn of War.. currently the ladder got bugged.. when i win, the game just dun lemme win.. so i rather play custom.. met 1 good SM player.. got thrash... gonna save the replay.. also.. met 1 SC abuser.. damn him.. next time i vs Eldar i will definitely use SC.. SC is noobish... i beat his sc n fs using 2 warpspideys n guardians.. n then comes the stupid fire prism... nnb.. this kinda of ppl.. no skill... =p.. if u talking about abusing Eldar.. SC is a realy abuse.. shud nerf it even duh i'm a eldar user.. its just too imbalanace..

:: done finally ::

2004-10-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

finally i can play my dow... finally.. after a long wait.. gonna go train liao.. just to post an update for my previuos post... i must train hard.. =p

:: dammit to PATCH ::

2004-10-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

sup peeps... haven been updating much.. having sum damn life rite now w/o online Dawn of war.. =='' going to have soon.. be cuz of the damn patch that cant auto dl.. its my connection prob.. so i just found a standalone patch.. so i can play online... n not waste my money.. muahahaha..

anyway.. wanted to intro u guys dawn of war but mostly ppl who see my blog dun play games.. sumhow not as devoted as me.. =p but its a good intensive strategy game.. u dunno when the opponent capture ur strategic pt and u dunno when he's gonna backstab.. scouting n speed comes in the play in this kinda games.. unfortunately.. i haven mastered it cuz of the damn patch i wasnt able to dl thru the game.. playing w/ computer AI (artificial intelligence) is so damn bored.. just nee dto camp base n upgrades your soldiers n u win... =p but playing vs. human players is different... so i wasnt able to improve or train..

so peeps.. time to go again.. i'm still waiting for the patch to be dled...

:: cHaNging mY AttENtion To DoW ::

2004-10-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

going to buy DoW tml.. dawn of war.. haha.. one big rts i presume.. bt kinda smaller than wc.. will quit wc liao.. gonna be a pro in DoW i hope.. train from the start of release.. =p anywhere.. i relised every rts game come out.. i'll auto choose the most diff race.. i dnno y.. b4 i touch wc.. i chosen Night Elf.. the most micro intensive n flexible race.. difficult o play cuz of there are a lot of nerfing to it.. making it so diff to play.. units with low hp.. need intesive micro to it.. Now for DoW.. again.. i played demo.. played empire space marine race.. but dun like it.. i chosen eldar race.. to my shock as i read the eldar forums.. eldar is also another diff race to play.. low hp.. sianed.. micro intensive again.. going to get the game tml.. then play w/ goat.. think he will choose the chaos rae or wadeva.. relic coming out a new patch for DoW.. soon.. n know wad?.. is to nerf eldar... i'm like WTF.. every race i choose in rts are those diff race to play and control.. lol.. hope i can master it well while players are not much in singapore...

i'm actually taking a risk.. i play rts is for competition n mostly about money.. as in another career.. a pro-gamer.. =p i dunno if DoW is in the gamelist of WCG 2005 or not.. if its not in.. i train for damn.. if have.. then lemme me meet singapore players of DoW and hope i can thrash them.. =p n hopefully get into aLt or diVe clan in their DoW section.. =p.. tats all peeps!!...

:: fUking ShiAt finally i'm UPDATING my bloggy AGAIN! ::

2004-10-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

just played dota w/ goatz.. haha.. he say imba.. wadeva.. ne way.. mian point is not abt dota.. is abt me.. =p last post was.. sumwhre in aug.. thats damn long time.. damn.. hmmm.. maybe i shud change my fuking lang to damn.. not so chor.. damn.. lol.. just being a freaking joker.. haha..

my life.. not bad.. exams.. screwed up a little.. 2 main thing.. for one my cousin come n stay is damn crowded n i got no damn mood to study as well.. how i wish i could just say stdu... haiz.. anywhere.. she n her husband left.. thats a good thing.. for two.. one of my leader died in car accident.. how u expect me to study?.. 1st time.. encountered death.. n sum wad during my most impt period of time.. my exams.. haiz..

ne way.. same old me.. hmmm i think i've got a change.. lol.. documentation standard is higher.. i cant believe the proposals i did during my sec sch is so shiat.. even those for last this yr recuritment drive.. haha.. ne way.. thats good cuz cchms scout gonna have a backing in admin side.. i mean in organizing of admin.. my eng still suck... lol.. jx complained i nv update.. goat also.. mei also.. i dunno yt got not.. ne way i dun give a damn.. cuz yt is just not my gf... hahahahaha... no offend in any other way but to shoot goat only..

trying to get back my feel for solo-ing in wc.. long time.. long damn time i nv touch 1v1.. played w/ goat.. i suck too much.. slow in everythig.. micro still ok.. but my macro is shiat.. shortcut kyes al forgt.. din really analyse ne replays lately.. just watch for entertainment.. =,='' thats lame i know.. haha.. thinking of quiting wc n concentrate on Warhammer 40000... new type of rts IF only warhammer is in WCG... still thinking..

love life.. is blank.. lol.. so dun ask me.. now i'm having alot of stuff to do... campfire, camps, recruitment.. all come to me.. scouts n vnture side i also need to chap.. cuz dinesh n albert will surely leave.. then left me ONLY.. jx they all go NS... thats all abt me during the long damn break of not updating.. poly suit me the best e way... gd LUCK to jc student... o.0''

.: 一瞬间的笑 :.

2004-08-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

haha.. just read mel's bloggie.. nic say touch my ur tt phrase "where all girls have gone" or sumthing lidat.. lol.. ne way.. me is not as nice as u think la.. dun praise.. me = simple guy which will nv get sad.. if u think i'm sad.. its not.. its just bcuz i'm too shag.. or too sian.. lol.. no 1 has eva seen me sad b4.. oni saw me angry b4.. lol.. so dun anihow say i sad ok.. as for now.. 朋友就好，不需要做情侣。免得大家都麻烦，害她考不好；而我又变成了一个罪人。我已经是一个了。不希望当个更罪的一个人。ne way.. now going to blog things related to my title of my post.. song bo..

今天，我本来是约好 mel 跟 nic 下午四点。但，我迟到了。原因是因为我约好继杨拿报纸子给他。但是，他却迟到了。咳... 那时我一肚子火。不是因为他迟到；而是怪我自各没约早点儿的时间。我发了简讯给她。她的回答是如冰水把我肚子里的那把火给浇灭了。在接下来的感觉是如此的奇妙。这种感觉是无法形容；无人能体会到的。我笑了。就那瞬间，我笑了。就一句话弄得我心情放松，笑了起来。可是我的微笑只长达两秒钟。脑海里浮现了一个问题。当她收到我发的简讯，关心地叫她多休息多喝水（因为她今天不舒服），她又一样喜出望外吗？我的笑容也就这样一瞬间的没了。

我搭着巴士前往丹马锡理工学院............

.: ShOcKiNg :.

2004-08-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

today is a shocking day fer me.. suddenly shock tio from alot of stuff i heard today.. lol.. nic got 7 ex.. lol.. pro as compared to me.. i oni got 1.. which.... i'm happy w/ it.. got good memories.. wish her happiness.. she got a new guy which will protect her from lightning, from all the fear she has.. and cure her constant headache when she's tired.. ne way.. i already see through alot of things liao.. cuz of the shocking day.. i'll do sum chinese write up.. cuz i'm so damn bored..

在此我这小男孩要发言了。我想对全世界的男人与女人说些话...

对男人说的话:
男人啊男人... 为何脑海里只有“性”这个念头。我真为男人失望，彻底的失望。因为性，你们可以随随便便交个女朋友。那是对的吗？那只有让全世界的女人伤透了心。因为“性男人”，这世界会有多少无辜的女孩去堕胎；白白杀了新的生命；白白杀了无辜的孩子们。男人啊男人！我们真可恶！在此再读我 blog 的男人... 请不要为性而交女朋友；但为爱交女朋友。

对女人说的话：
体贴大方的女孩们，我知道你们是很敏感的热血动物。在此我慎重地向你们道歉。大家都是动物，不管男或女都是动物。动物都有雄性大发的时候。由此是男人。给他们一个机会吧。让他们改过，让他们好好对待你们。可是，首先你需要给他们一些些的时间。对不起。

.: 等 :.

2004-08-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

等。一个人能等多久？一个人的耐性又可等多久？一个人的心又能等多久？那谁又会等？而那“被”等的人又在等谁呢？等是好事坏？等是酸或甜？等又是苦或辣？为何人要等？为爱？为所需的东西？为名誉？要等的东西十分多。多如沙粒；多如水... 我的朋友... 你们又在等什么？她又在等什么？我又在等什么？

我会等。等到时间的尾端；等到你说你喜欢...

.: 开心的一天 :.

2004-08-07T03:05:00.001+08:00

decided to blog in eg since my previous entry was a chinese 1.. lol.. ne way.. today.. oh no.. shud say ytd.. ya ytd.. the ooi paper is so easy that i actually easily wrote 3 pages for the last question.. amazing i can write so much.. cuz since i starting my education life i dun write so much in english.. ne way.. mel went talking crap abt hving a double date.. i was like.. erm -,-'' but ne way.. went to watch the village w/ jess n mel n blah blah.. (keeping it low for mel.. =p) then mel they all keep whispering.. most prob abt me.. tt was like... lame.. cuz me n jess oni norm frens only ma..

but actually the village is a freaking lame show.. dun watch it.. trust me.. even if u guys wannna watch it.. go princess cinema at bedok.. lol.. or u can just dl it on irc or wad so eva.. just dun spend 8+ watching tt show.. u'll regret.. haha..

during the movie was so damn funny... i wasnt chua tio.. i know jess got chua tio.. she like jump up of her seat when tt red guy n the sound effect BOOM together.. the show quite lame la actually.. plot just sux.. i dunno y ppl say is nice.. its 0310.. n i'm still onlie blogging.. thinking of stuff.. eating my fav bread with kaya n peanut butter spread.. status now is zombie.. mind status is heck care.. studies 1st... 感情的事，慢慢来吧。我也不想影响到她；我也因此不想影响到我自己。到最后还是会浮现很多烦恼；很多的难题；很多的悲与伤。很多很多很多..... 她是吗？她与我只是普通朋友。但她真的是吗？

：：花钱的一天：：

2004-07-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

今天真是有够衰！七早八早，justin 打给我叫我回学校因dexter有东西要给我。没法子。只好起床，梳洗，冲去中正！咳... 我好像睡觉！！过后去打桌球，我发现我的技术进步了；但还是打不赢dexter。到parkway走了好一阵子。走来走去都没看到我喜欢的鞋子；真是“显”一半。但还是买了一件衬衫与T-shirt。还买了一个包包。就这样，我估计我一天内花了百多块了！！

.: SiAnZ :.

2004-07-28T11:43:00.000+08:00

now in lab lo.. kan puo sian leh.. lol.. doing sum assignment about setting up a movie export import company.. know wad?.. i'm the operation manager.. today is so damn sian n fucking long day.. dun have mood to do anything sia.. later after 6pm ahve to stay back and rush proposal.. tml submition lo.. sian.. i dun have anytime to study.. haha.. ne way.. super hungary now.. must wait for 1hr n 10mins to 2hrs break.. sian rite?..

today is really a sleeping day for me.. now still sehing lo.. kan pua lots of proposal to think.. later go canteen sleep.. zZzZzZz.. oh wait.. dun think will sleep.. must eat 1st.. lol.. ne way.. this friday de jia ren you yue pao tang le.. jess half way say got compulsory co concert.. ne way next friday after i finish my last test gonna go out w/ jess watch movie.. hope dun pang seh again.. lol

:: 我会来了！！找回自我；恢复信心。::

2004-07-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

再一次，我又熬过来了。很多事情我看透了。我学会了控制自己的情感；而且学会很快的从黑暗里找到光芒。真有满足感。哈哈哈哈哈。我已经六天没 blog 了。桃花结？算设么。对我来说它只是一个阻挡我前进的障碍。至于那两位女生，做做朋友就好。幸好我没做出什么冲动的蠢事。这几天我都会很忙。看一看“忙”字。“心”字边再加上死亡的“亡”。一个人如果忙的话心就会无死。所以这几天我就会像僵尸一样，面无表情。小心我吸你的血！muhahahahah.... ok.. 我有点无聊~~别理我。这个星期五我约了 jess 去看 keatmeng 的 harmonica concert。哈哈。想到keatmeng会吹口琴就像笑。你看他瘦瘦干干的，他会有气去吹口琴吗？哈哈哈。算了，给他一点面子。不要在这里抔他冷水。要不然他 monkey 性大发我就死了!就到此为止吧。改天再blog。

::两个女生，我无法选择。::

2004-07-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

我是遇桃花结了吗？我心乱。我的思维也乱得一塌糊涂。我未曾遇过那么纳闷，那么难决择的事。我真的败在这两个女生的手中。一位女生是已经有喜欢的人了，但是那个男生只当她是普通朋友。另一个女生是我认识四年的好朋友。

<< 我在课室!! 哈哈哈!! >>

2004-07-15T10:56:00.000+08:00

我现在上课.真无聊,没乐趣.

_o am i too gd a fren? o_

2004-07-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

haiz..... sum ppl may know wad i'm going thru n sum may not.. uknow wad peeps?.. i actually encourage her to go yong gan de like daniel.. am i too gd a fren?.. i myself also dunno.. just know if she happy.. then me too.. =p sms her since morning 1047 till now n stil sms-ing.. broke the record.. suhd i feel happy?.. or not..

lOsT w/O a gUiDiNg sTaR.. tt's ME..

tt's how to make me...

2004-07-11T01:15:00.000+08:00

How to make a Houston Toh

Ingredients:

3 parts friendliness

5 parts brilliance

1 part beauty

Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of lovability and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

>> b a fren is harder than u think <<

2004-07-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

being a normal fren... is simple as ABC.. cuz a normal yet simple fren is just 2 words they'll tell each otha.. those 2 words are, "hi, bye".. isnt it simple?... u can say chee bye also can.. no prob 1..

being a closer fren.. is aslo quite simple.. just tt the fomula is not as easy as ABC.. its T + C = Talk Cock... a closer fren can just talk wadeva cock he has.. or wadeva fake cocks she has.. simple?.. tt's simple..

being a very close fren.. like brotha scouts n sistaz guides.. tt need time n hardship.. formual is "quarrels + hardship we had together + the time spent together + the things we share together = foreva friends"

being a fren who urself wanna be more than a fren to he/she is fucking difficult.. u are actually trying damn fucking hard to hide ur feelings... when u see he/her w/ the person they like... u'll feel fucking... weird... sour... pain... the feeling is... i dunno... i cant describe.... or maybe i can... u gonna feel fucked up like me now... its really fucked...

n i realise... u know mankind's ultimate enemies is who?.. there're 2... one, is oneself.. 2nd.. is when u get into the love shit.... wtf is going on in me... lost w/ no guidng star.. tt's me..

>> unlucky me, trouble me, vexing me <<

2004-07-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

k... my lappie is fucked.. gonna bring to JURONG next monday.. dun ask me y here... ask me in person.. cuz lazy to elaboarate here..

trouble trouble.. me status = zai xian qing wang zhong, nan yi zi ba... if u can read then u know wad i mean.. lol.. fri gonna go swimming w/ mel, nic, sop n marni.. n still got who ah.. lemme think.. or n mel's school fren... so i assume is chio bu.. lol.. ne way.. life in poly rules w/ mel n nic lo.. really rocks.. we like the life of our class lo.. ne jokes all come from us!.. lol.. we r sumwad bcuming closer n closer frens liao.. i believe we dun have secrets lo.. lol.. they super nice ppl la... next fri go adventure camp sia.. w/ mel n zaki... haha.. zaki ncc.. so dunnit teach him.. mel ask me to teach her how to pack her haversack.. lol.. kinda lame la.. but w/ me around mel shudnt have a prob lo.. we scouts pro-campers... sry ah.. today a bit pms la.. so abut bhb.. lol..

vexing me.. emotions.. all covering me.. confused.. n tired.. stress.. projects.. venture admin... n problem group members... heng i gonna change group.. gonna group w/ mel sop n nic... me n mel n nic will confirm do work.. but dunno abt sop... she seems... those kinda heck care type... dunno.. mel also pissed w. her own grp members.. but ne way.. we'll be grouped together.. so wun get piss..

vexing, unlucky n troubles.. its me..

.: time to post a entry... :.

2004-07-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

yo sup peeps!.... song bo... just liddat.. my wk2 is gone liao... i realised time really flies in poly lo... lol.. phew then 1 day le.. ne way... there's a adventre camp which i'm going so probly will postpone the hike cuz camp fell on 16th-18th july!!.. ne way... my poly life is fun man.. me n few of my friends form up a nie nie group.. meanie, beanie, tinie and hinie is our nick.. me = hinie!!.. haha..

ne way... ytd woke up very early even duh lectures starts at 9am.. went to TM and meet mel n teach her html.. then tml going lib w/ her tml again.. oh.. for info.. she's beanie.. lol.. so i like hanging ard w/ these guys alot.. this make poly life fun lo... there ae little class politics now... but sumhow we just hide it...

i realised poly just made me forget her... now i dun really feel for her... n i think tt's good... but when thinkin back rite.. still bit sour... haha.. so xue zhen.. u can dunnit ask me to not give up liao..

.: crazy n seh day :.

2004-06-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

today is really seh.. its WEDNESDAY!!! lol.. my timetable is damn pack.. sehed after the 1st half of the day.. went makan... then back to lesson!!.. me n nic is realy crazy.. lol.. we can like look at each other then laugh 1... and is laugh non stop... today me n him is like laughing all day.. ahhahaha...

met jiyang in the evening.. w/ yt of cuz.. tok cock abit... then went his hse take wc cd... FINALLY i can play wc w/ no lag!!! hahah..

.: bLaCk OUT!!! :.

2004-06-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

oh.. wtf.. i just got back electricity sia.. i think almost every part of sigapore gana the balck ou.. from reliable sources repoted by goat's stead yitng. lol.. bleahx.. its bcuz of indonesia nat. gas.. i think i gana cut off or sumthing.. i'm not sure.. tml see news will know. lol..

ne way.. i just LOVE INE tut!!! ms faridah is sooooo nice!!! we had a like 10min singing session to warm up the lesson.. lol.. then we were like singing all crappy song.. f cuz not full la.. just crap our way thru... she bas la.. titanic la...stars la.. then faridah san too!.. she sang song from barney and frens de show.. lol.. but turn out nice.. so every tut we'll hae a sing along sesion i guess.. she also jio us o swim sia.. friday after 1800.. lol.. then procede to group work.. then as usual lo.. my group of frens one group.. then we think of answers then crap abit.. poly student WILL do their work 1 ok.. lol.. then we were like discussng about why ppl use compact discs and not casette tapes.. then got ppl say wad longer life-span.. then ah belle was lke thinking the LJ is long... then our whle group laugh like siao!! lol... evry1 was lke crazy lo.. ne way.. went to simlim w/ shawn.. ten i bought a acer laptop.. acer 200o series.. quite sytlish.. then got arcade mode.. haha.. using it rite now.. but gonna formt my hdd when i got winNT/2000...

.: n otha slacking day of mine o.O :.

2004-06-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

today.. kinda slack la.. haha.. not a very siong day.. wednesday and thurs will be siong.. ne way.. today quite fun duh also.. my groups of frens were all talking about sumthing.. lol. shall not reveal it here!!.. give u sum hints.. its super funny 1!!! lol.. if u wanna know then msg me on msn or sms me lo..

afta school when TP lib w/ melissa, nich etc.. then help melissa find her book... then me, eric(as in the chung cheng eric) and nich go sportshall play pool.. k.. nich is super pro.. bo wei gong.. maybe more pro than weiliang!!!.. ne way.. went TM eat yoshi.. then ah belle come find us tok cock abit abt the thing i mentioned in the abv para.. lol.. then went home..

me gonna mug on Fireworks Fundamentals a few days.. haha.. then next i'm gonna mug on Programming PHP.. i try to keep myself learn more n new things.. or not too slack liao la.. then learn nuthin.. i must make use of my free time... =p

.: heatie, hottie, warmie :.

2004-06-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

today's weather is like.. phew.. as described above.. just bathed.. but till hot... i just came to realised.. i think she block + delete me on msn.. i'm thinkning whether i shud do tt not... =p

.: a man who's single n not available =p :.

2004-06-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

yea.. tt's me!.. y i say tt?.. cuz i wanna settle down my poly life 1st.. ne way.. my circle of fwens in poly is like so small.. i still got like 3 yrs!!.. so relax abit lo.. bored bored.. gan qing de shi, you yuan zai shuo ba.. ytd my AO/CP called me.. she asked me, "houston ah, ms rohaya here. erm.. there's a competition about microsoft.. can i nominate u?"... wondered who sabo-ed me.. or i'm too high profile.. dunno.. think Ang sab0-ed.. cuz he class rep... ne way.. i got a excuse to skip 1 lecture.. BUT.. it's not a good thing.. cuz tt lec is fun 1.. oh ya.. haven write letter to jess... wonder when i'll write..

gtg to learn FW liao.. as for php.. wait awhile ba..

<-- fomula of my day = 1/4 of fucked + 3/4 of fun -->

2004-06-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

k today quite interesting.. start school @ 11am.. quite song la.. then 1hr tut 1 hr lec.. then 3hrs break!!!.. then my group of frens decided to go pavilion.. then go lo.. then how the fucked i just saw her... nvm.. i tot of saying hi.. but she just siam.. then i really sianed 1/2.. maybe not 1/2.. is sianed full!!

anyway went to play pool awhile then go baq sch mug on html coding.. abigail is pro in HTML.. got a competitor liao... die.. ne way.. i got goat's stead to help me comment on my site duh... haha.. goat dun mind rite... mind tell me.. then i wun ask yiting..

last nite.. was toking to yitng goat and xuezhen.. lol.. goat ask me quickly get over it... xuezhen instead ask me to continue.. and siad wad's mine is mine.. lol..see.. i got 3 friends having different views of my love life.. but either way.. i'll just take it as reference oni... put in in my 'referal archive' in my head.. lol.. decision is still up to me.. i decide to remain in a dark place.. supporting her.. till i completely get over it.. goat ask me to jio my classmates.. i was like.. TOTALLY unfair.. as in unfair to girls.... n cheating myself too.. =p so, tt information has being deleted away...

.: sum poly stuff... sum scouting shit... :.

2004-06-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

finally.. i got time and feeling to blog..lol.. ok.. poly seems fine to me.. more slack than expected.. but i alswaex keep a mind set tt this is only teh beginning so as to not slack.. cuz dinesh told me if u slack, then fail lo.. unless u are super genius like dinesh frens.. pon lec and tut and pract.. gana warning.. in the end all As... think weiliang can do tt in jc.. ok ne way.. evrything start off well.. n i starting to dislike nmm cuz cannot use flash.. cuz i'm too use to use flash for my webby.. anyway.. going to learn fireworks.. hmmm.. xing yi dun say i gia su ok.. is i got the interest to learn... so i'm not gia su.. ne way.. REM just sux bcuz the lecturer is so boring.. talk like machine gun i'm fine w/ it.. but she like computer vomit all info.. no expression on her face.. REM.. f-ed it..

next for scouts.. alot of issue just 'boom' come afta pltc stc.. the worse is jon gana shoot which i think is about time.. people start to shoot him.. his problem dinesh albert will settle.. when i get to see i'll talk to him also.. hmmm.. cuz i straight afta poly lec then go str. to meet dinesh albert jason they all tonite.. so i think my dad kinda not happy.. lol.. but he din say anything then i also dunnit to explain.. cuz he say poly 3yrs chiong.. i'm chiong-ing.. u all know la my old buddies.. i'm damn on in scouting 1.. finally.. dinesh said my batch ventures will slowly do more than venturing.. otha words.. we'll do venturing AND leadering at the same time.. cuz dinesh say is about time to train us.. and also we are of his expected standard now.. phew finally.. afta 1.5yrs.. finally reach his MINIMAL standard.. ok.. so nuthin much la..

last thing.. i'm very vex abt it.. 'she' got a new bf.. very luan now.. =p shud i feel happy?.. or sad?.. i duno.. dotter ask me dun feel anything.. just be my normal self.. there's time i'm really like fucked.. but sumtimes thinking back.. i'm alrite w/ it.. otha words i get ova it liao.. but.. dunno leh.. quite vex also.. ne way.. trying to forget abt the pass.. so when i got the time.. i'll remove her blog link from my blog.. oh ya.. also.. she dunno who's nitewalker.. she tot was another person who i dunno who.. ne way... good tt she dunno who's nitewalker.. also dun wan her having hard time when her frens bombard abt her past realtion.. so i'll just quietly leave i guess.... ne way.. dinesh came in time to 'save' me.. lol.. he leave down instructions for me to carry on our venture unit.. n i got a hike to plan... so i'll be busy learning fireworks.. css/dhtml.. chiong scouting.. no time to think about her ne way.. oh ya.. i think i gave melissa a very bad impression on me.. lol.. cuz i said, "OLE is fucked la.." lol.. the f-word.. no choice la.. tt time i was discussing abt jon stuff... oh.. need to write letter to jess..

<-- whoo!! pOLy starts today!! -->

2004-06-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. 1st day of poly.. slack... i neva expect to be SHOOO slack.. is like.. whole day wasted.. cuz for me.. i can absorb much more info.. i think today's lec like.. too little.. exp. OOI.. lec period last for an hour.. but Ms Goh oni use 32mins to be exact to finish the lec.. lol.. which i think is very little.. ne way.. know wad my old buddies?... i TAKE NOTES WHILE IN LECTURES!!.. lol.. miracle rite?.. haha.. cuz as u guys know how i slack in cchms la.. haha.. ne way.. maybe of cchms.. i can absorb more stuff in one day lo.. so today was like.. 2 periods of cchms days.. maybe its the starting only.. so.. man man lai ba..

1st lec i sianed liao.. felt like sleeping duh.. cuz i alreadi learnt those while i was sec1 or 2.. html codings..

"<'html>
<'head>
<'title>Hello World<'/title>
<'/head>
<'body>
Hello World!
<'/body>
<'/html>
" is wad i learn in the 1st lec... =p.. so kinda bored.. ne way.. i need yiting help in future i think.. lol.. cuz my webby layout is shit.. need her to comment on my webby i guess.. also.. i'm gonna re-learn CSS/DHTML.. all give back liao.. ne way... cant wait for lab lesson for NMM.. hope tml's lec will be more fun.. =p

p.s: there is no error of my <'html> cuz the html tag is not allowed on blog.. so i just add a '.. =p

.: poly starting.... :.

2004-06-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

ok.. i cum to blog is bcuz!!.. poly starting!!! song bo... ne way.. 1st lesson is NMM... network multimedia.. about doing webby i guess.. i hope i can... nono.. cannot use hope.. i wanna get A for NMM.. =p.. but i have to put in alot of effort.. haha.. ne way.. lets talk about the 2nd day of my orientation.. tt day was... PHEW!.. FUN!!.. 1stly i got sabo-ed to play a erotic game.. we r supposed to imagine tt the bottle is a chio bu.. then kiss wadeva part u wanna kiss.. then the 1st girl chose the ass.. then i chose the head... then got ppl chose the fingers.. n lips summore.. then melissa chose the feet!.. oh shit.. its gross... but just a game.. then.. we started to kiss the girl next to us where we kiss the bottle.. the girl who kiss ass went to the back cuz the BEST is kept for the last.. lol.. then we just carry on kissing.. sum1 kiss boobs too... up to u all to imagine how the guy kiss a girl's boobs.. then melissa was made to kiss on the lips... cuz the guy beside her chose the lips.. ne way.. in the end melissa also kissed sum1's feet.. then next was the girl who gonna kiss ass.. then u know wad i do?... i'm sabo-ed again to contribute my flat ass... oh well.. i wun elaborate much.. then nuthin much i think... made to be the bachelor.. then wear thrash bags.. lol..

ne way.. enuf if those things... for more infomation please call 97692284 and look for Mr. Houston Toh.. LOL.. being lame here.. ne way.. hmmmmmm.. got wad to talk leh?.. oh ya.. abt the GaoTaMaDeNai n albert... they leaving next year.. so.. ya.. still got 1.5 yrs w/ them... so i hope to learn as much as possible from them... also albert got his 2 beads liao... for me.. i just wanna get pass my PSA n venturing then go to ultbc... easier said than done.. hmmmm.. trying to find a good chance to tell me dad i wanna buy laptop too... lol.. cuz poly they got student price.. mz alreadi ordered.. n i'll buy the same model as him.. but i think need to format the OS cuz mz said is MAC os... so i needa change to Win OS.. most probly i'll use WinME... less memory.. XP is memory eater.. not to mention LONGHORN also.. its a Win OS after XP.. =p

last few things... tag-board is up again.. chatter box seems to have sum errors... i think is server side.. cuz i went to read thru scripts.. nuthin is wrong i presume.. n JIA YOU FOR ME!! gonna chiong the 3yrs of my poly.. hope can get ovasea SIP...

.: OEI OEI OEI !!! :.

2004-06-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

ok.. todae was my 1st day of my orientation.. kinda.. fun n bored la.. the thing is.. u can look at the title.. its the OEI-ing day!!.. INM oei! oei! INM oei! oei! INM oei! SAT SAT OEI!... INM INM oei oei oei! oei oei oei oei oei! INM INM oei oei oei! oei oei SAT SAT OEI!... maybe u'll understand lo... is like.. from lecture hall.. oei until games.. then oei until comp labs then oei unil lunch then oei evrywhere.. except!!! toilet... muahahaha...learn a few new cheers n claps la.. but!!... the super solid cheer is like no1 knows!! i mean to the freshmen... the OL knows la of cuz... so.. kinda lame.. they also have fruits song... remember the erotic fruits cheer?... we do it in a more erotic way.. lol.. also got go fly kite cheer... i like tt 1 best:

fight like a chapion fight fight fight;
score like a champion score score score..
fight like a champion, score liek a championeverybody go fly kite!
fly kite fly kite, later gana lightning strike..
hahahahaha, nehnehnehnehneh, BLEAH!!!!

still got a hand execise call the dum dum dee dee...

haha.. so long folks...

.: bACK on more PLTC n sumthiNG abt filial piety... :.

2004-06-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

ok PLTC... kinda sucky for me at times... cuz they pltc thinks tt lao hu bu fa wei, treat me as ping mao... so must do those knck-it-down things... think i like to do it?... lol.. waste my breath n saliva nia... ne way... in this camp.. my real purpose is to push my cchs ppl... but i only got 4 cchs in my sub-camp.. fortunately kaijie is 1 of them.. so he die die also will be SPL one day during camp.. so on the 3rd day where there's is a campfire.. so i have him be the SPL... gave him alot of shit.. but also... got chiong w. him la.. enuf of PLTC.. eager for next year's 1..

now i wanna talk abt filial... i dunno u guys watch the 7pm channel 8 series.. its called Xi Ling Men.. there were this 2 elders dead n his sons n daughter-in-law all eyeing for the gold bars, only the 3rd son n daughter-in-law(Jiaxi) fuck it.. ok ne way.. i felt disgusted.. is like.. i was really angry, waited to really smash the tv in front of me.. but still.. its just a drama..

y?!.. y?! ppl wanna quarrel ova those money stuff WHEN your parents are dead n haven even arrange funeral?!.. this is so... so fuck!.. i mean.. its super nature tt we take care of our parents when they're old or even when we starting to work... i think we should repay them for bringing us up... N i THINK we cant EVEN repay them! y?.. cuz the love from our parents is PRIECLESS!!!! nuthing can pay for it.. u JUST CANT... UNDERSTAND!!!??... fuck man... when lil kid, our parents feed us, bathe us, give us money for schooling, comfort and stuff... n yet we fuck care their presence when we are adults n not gonna take care of them.. THIS IS NO LOGIC!!... from my POV... even if i'm penniless... i wun let my parents suffer!!... at least 3 meals per day... i mean... those efforts, money, time, love, care etc they showered on us is just too much... for me... i cant bear to let my parents go die (touching wood)... i just cant do it.. i dunno Y THERE ARE PPL OUT THERE WHICH CAN DO IT W/O ASKING THEIR LIANG XIN!!!... main point i gonna get thru... be filial...

.: bACk to bloGGie; BacK fROm CamP :.

2004-06-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

back!! i'm back!! oh wtf... PLTC.. 1stly is kinda good experience.. i'm under kamal, albert n edison.. in sub-camp BAHEERAH!! ROAR!!!!!.. ne way.. learn alot of stuff from my sun camp chieives.. super nice guys.. cool too.. (ah... nice root beer i drinking nw..) but kinda disappointed w/ scouts in this era... maybe i used the wrong words.. nt era but this generation.. =p they are so spoilt.. n ALOT of muscle-brain ppl.. lamer (-,-") met new frens!! sin tat.. dunno i spelt his name correctly nt.. but.. ne way.. cool guy.. n the f-king world is so SMALL!!.. sin tat went 3 camps w/ me B4!!! n yet i know him just this camp.. in sec1 dec.. he n me went for the SG JAM in same district, in YR2K2 we went the SAME pltc under SAME sub camp, and this yr we went to help the same coursE.. oh.. wtf.. haha.. met sum TNS ventures.. NEW to venturing.. is REALLY new.. from my POV.. they are w/ very little basic training.. not like my batch of scouts n sin tat whom had went thru things the hard way.. learn things thru the hard way too.. BUT I cANT IMAGINE A GIRL VENTURE W/ LITTLE BASIC TRAINING TO BCUM A V-CHAIR OF TNS VENTURE... this time is really WTF!!... i even think my sec2 scouts are betta than her.. muahahaha.. er hem.. erm.. trying to get back to normal self.. or nt my AP will offend hella of ppl.. think i alreadi offended the v-chair of tns venture liao.. haha.. ne way.. kinda tired la.. cuz i sumtimes multi role-ing..

me = albert's + edison's + kamal's runner.. multi role as in need help abit in qm side abit in admin side.. so.. super tired.. sentry also.. evrynite stay up like 2-3am then sleep.. then 5+ 6am must wake up liao.. then must shout, "BAHEERAH! FALL-IN!!" n so on.. kinda sianed of typin.. cont sum time later bah..

(.") PLTC (",)

2004-06-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

k peeps.. PLTC coming up.. in fact is tml.. gonna slog agin.. wTf!!.. oh ya... ne way... sms if u need me.. dun call.. thx..

.: abt the movie : Best Bet :.

2004-06-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

u know abt the new movie, best bet by jack neo, a singapore production?... i BET u know it.. ne way... todae went out.. n EVERY MRT station has this fucking irritating song which goes like this, "bai liu li bai, hui bu hui kai...." its the theme song for Best Bet.. is like... fucking irritating?.. the only advertisment is ONLY the Best Bet movie which keep singing the abv lines... i was like... can i take my dan shoe n hit the damn monitor tt keep showing the damn movie trailer w/ tt damn song... is FUCKING... i really MEAN FUCKING IRRITATING!!

ne way.. i would like to talk abt gambling.. ppl say gamble will destroy ur life... true? or nt.. 1st of all i wanna tell u guys tt evryday, evry hour, evry minute n evry second, we r all gambling.. u may ask me.. wad is the stakes.. the type of stakes are infinity... range from time, ur favourite show n future... y i say we gamble evry moment.. here's my thinking... take for example, me.. i'm going for WCG this year.. the reason y i'm going is to hope to gain experience n probly win (i doubt so)... just like ppl buy 4D cuz they wanna win $.. so.. my stakes.. time n effort n money to train for warcraft.. simple?.. get wad i mean?.. lol.. lemme maybe convert teh abv example to buying 4D, i go WCG = i buy 4D, cuz wanna gain experience = wanna win money when i buy 4D, time,effort,monet is stakes = u use money to buy 4D.. the results... i got kick out in prelimery rd = i lost the money cuz the number i buy did nt 'open'... nw u get it?... lol..

<~/-\~ uBiN ~/-\~>

2004-06-04T13:30:00.000+08:00

yo peeps!!!... 1st of all!! wTf!! poly is drawing near!!.. lol
went to ubin ytd n came back this morning.. nuthin much la.. so sum self training.. then role playing of arsonists.. gt 4 puppies pei the 3 of us.. lol.. nw then i know jason scared of dogs...!! i was like.. wTf.. puppies oni... even big dogs i wun scare also.. lol.. those puppies were damn curious.. lol.. the go bite our guy lines.. then keep poucing on 1 n otha.. lol
kawaii neh... ne way.. fell down hurt my knee.. lol.. cuz i was thinking of water while was on the bike.. then din notice my bike was going towards the edge of road.. lol.. nuthin much...=p

(.") ulcer... pain.. (",)

2004-05-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

wtf man.. gt a pretty bad ulcer on my gum back in my mouth!!! think is too heaty liao.. sianed.. nw only can eat porridge duh... lol.. neway.. getting betta...

.:. yaWnz .:.

2004-05-28T03:57:00.000+08:00

its 0357.. friday.. n i'm still infront of my computer!!.. lol.. just finished watching pirates of the carribean.. haha.. nice show.. piracy!!! haha.. love it.. we really cant live in this world if there's no pirates last time.. imagine.. 1 piece of original cd-rom of a adobe company cost u a thousand bucks(photoshop).. bcuz of piracy!! we can have it for like 8 bucks?.. or maybe u go m'sia to but.. only 4 bucks SGD.. lol.. even betta.. testing the limits of law.. USE KAZAA!! u get it free... hmmm nt actually free.. u still ned to pay ur interent fees n electricity... =p piracy just rules all... haha.. now is 0401.. n i'm still pretty awake!! n my cousin started to call his china female frens i think.. he got to know them on yahoo chat.. lol.. nvm bout him.. this si my BLOG!! nt his.. hmmm.. piracy... i think i'm crazy abt pirates.. adventures.. the code of pirates.. evrything.. from flag, to medallion n ship!.. hmmm.. mabe i'll go find some info abt it.. then implenment in the dec moster camp.. muahahahahahaha... so long.. pirates.. phew.. y am i in this century.. i shld be in the pirates era.. lol.. love those adventures, curses, lengendary captains... a pirate code for u guys, "wad left behind is being left behind".... meaning, anything tt left behind will NOT be rescued/take back or wad so eva... salute to Captain Jack Sparrow!...

.:. bleahz... my life.. is so empty .:.

2004-05-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm nuthin to do at home.. warcraft n just warcraft n me.. lol.. hmmm me kinda no life.. sianed.. need sumting to do.. so went to find out how to make warcraft clips.. dled a on-screen capture program.. i dunno how to use.. kinda lame.. lol.. bored.. wun be updating too much duh.. cuz i'm sure my life will be voring till i go for PLTC.. or maybe till GaoTaMaDeNai delegate me to wadeva subcamp.. then i got stuff to do it..

.:.. been so long.. FINALLY OK!!! .:.

2004-05-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm its been 5 days tt i nv update.. lol... u guys maybe curious.. y i nv update.. actually is only 3days la.. lol.. cuz the last 2nights 1 day my comp is down for servicing BY ME n my my cousin.. the hard disk just dun run.. n we actually tot tt our data just got deleted.. but in fact its not.. afta the weird things we do.. its ok liao.. hmm... if sum1 can fixed my comp till sui sui.. i call him/her god.. cuz my comp has all the problems tt u guys cant imagine.. lol this time round.. we tot was tt the hardisk is burnt inside.. but afta taking n putting in for use.. we realised its nt.. so we focus on our cheap-to-hell-shitty mainboard.. we config here n there.. plug here n there.. play w/ the tiny jumper here n there.. n finally.. our comp ok.. this was last night senario... this afta.. i formatted my hard disk.. n install half way then eralised i cant read my cousin's handwriting.. hence i cant enter correct cd-key for my winME.. then i switch it off n when to use winXP (i got 2 hard disks)... night.. cousin came.. told me the cd-key.. n know wad?.. hard disk cant run again.. then we do sumthing pretty weird.. we switch slots w/ the cd-rom driver.. hard disk can run!!!! then me n cousin tot of sumthing.. the cable.. then in the end.. we change a new cable.. then my comp work just as nice as b4... i was like.. if i ask a professional come.. he'll just say..," sorry ah mister.. i think ur mainboard need to change..." heng ah.. i know abit of comp hardware know abit of how to fix things... if u ask me.. in this world who/what's the most siao thing/person.. i'll say my comp.. =p

<.: abt de nite i have ydt :.>

2004-05-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

last nite was totally crazy for me.. i met sum new friends.. (sing friendship dance song!!!) lol.. the small is so small.. i met weiliang's friend, Ray.. super ambitious... haha.. he's a nice guy to be w/ la.. 1st impression.. he's loyal to friends.. so he's a friend tt i'll definitely make.. haha.. met a crazy girl... sum ways to describe her.. 10x more worst than sarah lim (4ep y2k3)... 10x more crazy than me batch de guides (nw YA liao.. unbelievable)... i shan't say much abt tt crazy girl.. cuz.. she TOTALLY CRAZY... haha.. fun nite also.. too bad.. keatmeng they all never come.. cant get to know Ray.. hahah...

.:comparing SG kids n M'sia kids:.

2004-05-13T17:28:00.000+08:00

lol.. i dunno y.. this topic just flash thru my head n i had sum deep thinking while i'm bathing last nite!!!... lol.. ok i need to write the legend 1st...

LEGEND
<-------------------->
SGK = SG kids
MK = M'sia kids
FFT = FastFood Rest'
<-------------------->

ok now i start... the very obvious difference b/w a sgk n mk is tt.. sgk are mostly obese (or maybe increment of obesity, from the papers =>).. but mk are quite skinny.. reason wise.. sgk are much more fortunate as in they get to eat more variety of food (e.g fast food) than the mk.. in m'sia, to get to a fft.. u need to take quite a long journey to a more more urban area (except for KL).. y i know?.. cuz my mum is m'sian.. so mostly mk eat more more healthy food as in home-cooked food.. next point.. mk has lesser toys than sgk.. trust me.. this is confirmed true.. lol.. nt despising them la.. but m'sian earn pretty less as compared to wad ur parents are earning.. this is proven but the m'sian riggit value as compared to ours.. also.. most of m'sia is still 1/2 urban..

ok.. i think this e last point.. related to the 2nd pt i talked abt.. for sgk.. they have got computers at home, toys, PS1/2/X, GC/GBA n such material comforts.. from the outside u may think tt they have a pretty good life.. having all those super fun stuff for them to play n such.. this will result in sgk going for material comforts ONI... also.. cuz of those indoors toys n such.. they dun execise.. n becum obese.. sgk are really pampered like dunno wad shit.. like my brotha.. haha.. ne way.. dun abt my brotha.. make me vomit blood tt can fill up huang he.. they dun experience spiritual comforts.. they dunn wad is feelings, they dun think of otha ppl feelings (last time when i sec1/2 i was lidat.. haha.. but nw changed liao ok..).. n so ofend ppl quite easily.. being pampered n such make them weak in mind n physical.. also.. w/ all the fucking education scheme.. sgk will go bonkers.. u all see lotsa kids bcuming superman/lady when academic results are fucked up.. cuz from young.. they dun experience mental training and spirtual comforts as in they can do wad they like cuz parents keep asking them go for extra courses.. parents dun let them go out of ta house n mingle w/ neighbours kids n such.. so will result in today's sgk...

nw abt mk.. mk ppl are much more chor loh(hokkien).. but in terms of values tt the mk learnt, in terms of spiritual comforts, in terms of metal n physical strenghts.. mk are much fucking betta than the sgk.. really... in m'sia.. parents are nt so educated so cant really teach their kids.. but the kids can hang out w/ nehighbours' kids n do wad they like... cuz they dunnit to go for those fucking extra courses.. haha.. bcuz they can do wadeva things they like.. they din think of the consequences.. for example a boy pinch a girl buttocks.. for example oni la.. nt real.. they dun think of the consequences.. n get punish.. n this punishment i believe train ur mental strength.. cuz when u get punished.. u cant like escape from it.. also u'll realised tt wad u did was actually very wrong.. for the abv example.. u'll get humiliated by frens.. but this trained ur thinking n the mental strength to ova cum those humiliation..(my seniors are so sadist to me tt i'm immune to nicknames n such.. i belive in me.. wad otha ppl say i heck care.. thx seniors!)

this is so different from sgk.. we look at the differences in overall.. both mk n sgk has pros n cons.. mk will be strong in wadeva kind of situations they are in.. cuz they are strong in mental n strenght(4gt to say, mk do house chores.. u do?).. but mk is nt as good in academic.. so mk is the ones in future who will make big money(if they have the capital) bcuz ppl strong in mental n physical will b able to adapt the economic more easily n dare to take risk(my own opinion oni).. as for sgk.. their academic is superb.. but when comes to sumthing emotional, humiliation etc.. they will collaspe as fast as u blink ur eyes..

afta such a long freaking article of mine.. the point i'm trying to get to u guys is.. strike a balance b/w material comforts(zi zhu chang le) n spiritual comforts.. strike a balance b/w mental strenght, physical strenght n b able to adapt the environment fast..

<: nEw FeAtUrEs oG blOOger:>

2004-05-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

nuthing much la.. just added a personal profile thingy oni lo.. haha.. nt much.. also dunno for wad use.. like ppl can view it.. like ppl know gt this houston toh in this world.. haha..

.:sick man typing... @.@ :.

2004-05-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

yo evry1 1... ha~~~~ choo!!! song bo.. gt a flu infested on me.. wtf?.. haha.. no la.. just a small flu.. tml will be alright.. dun worrie!.. hmmm wad shld i talk abt todae leh?.. yet to try the new blogger features.. still can upload photos.. haha.. like friendster.. neway.. hope goat is alright n wish me dooter best of luck in her exams!! hee.. i so gd right dotteR?.. haha.. hmm.. recently think i improve on warcraft liao i think.. i can defeat a normal comp (all races!!!) w/o losing a single unit!!.. micro improved alittle.. thanks to the koreans videos!!! lol.. taught me sum micro skills.. btw.. for those hu dunno wad's micro.. its the skill of controlling the small little units in the game la.. haha.. but my macro still sux.. macro is the skill of building a defensive base n the skill of using ur resources to the max.. =p waitin for goat to burn me ragnarok.. haha..

hmmmm nuthing much le ba.. thinking alot lately.. but is just small triva (or is it travia or wadeva =_=;; lemme noe the correct word.. bu ran goat will nag to ask me improve eng again.. oei goat.. inprove ur fucking chinese la) !!!!! haha.. my english = T_T understand rite?.. ahah.. kinda bored at home these days.. cuz no karate.. no venture activity cuz my batch ppl r so FREE!!! except for weilaing hu's like very BUSY can pei me go watch mid nite show also.. lol.. so long folks.. dunno wad to type le... missing.. sumbdy.. haha.. i'll go try the new features of blooger 1st.. haha.. any 1 wanna ask me ne love communication problem can tag my board.. haha.. too bored at home le.. but say 1st.. i'm nt a gosu (other word for gosu is pro, gosu = 'high hand' in korean)...

.:so things a couple need to know:.

2004-05-10T03:16:00.000+08:00

*note: this gonna b long.. on ur winamp w/ sum soothing songs.. goat.. plz off ur winamp cuz ur songs r nt suitable for this entry*

here am i in the middle of nite writing a so-called philosophy of mine... nw i'll start..

hu r the couples... couple consist of a guy hu loves a girl n a girl hu loves the guy.. reason of this love going on is nt impt.. this is a definition of couple in my POV(point of view).. i'll type it in 2 seperate portions.. 1 for guys.. the otha for girls.. ppl keep saying.. ladies 1st.. so i'll start w/ wad girls need to know...

girls.. u need ti understand tt males r much more practical than girls.. guys will alwaex think of solutions when there's trouble instead of an wei-ing girls... so please forgive the guys when they jump straight to solutions.. also.. guys are seen to be.. more manly.. more.. leadership in them.. in front of friends.. bcuz of the nature of bcum manly n more leadership in them.. they'll boost ard n such.. dun blame them.. cuz this is our nature characteristic.. be sure to understand tt guys need more practical things... hmmm.. lemme cre8 a senario.. there was this girl hu waited her bf for movie for ard 1/2 hr.. the guy went park car far awae frm cinema cuz places nearly cinema is fully occupied.. so this girl is thinking tt her bf went out w/ otha girl.. then later.. the guy did explained.. but the girl insisted on her stand.. nevertheless.. they went for movie.. inside the cinema.. the girl felt guilty as she agreed it was her fault to accused her bf.. so she moved her hand n grip her bf hand to how a sign of apology.. the guy look at her.. gave her a cold stare.. push her hand awae.. n cont the movie w. anger.. afta movie.. the guy just walked in front of her gf.. ignoring her.. the girl was mad nw.. she was thinking tt she alreadi admit is her fault.. she followed him.. up to the car.. the bf screamed at her.. asking y she haven said sry.. the girl insisted on her stand.. she alreadi show sign of apology by holding his hand in cinema.. n din said sry.. bcuz of this.. they broke up.. just becuz of the 2 words.., "i'm sorry," so girls.. this proved to u tt guy is quite practical.. using methods like holding his hand (the emotional style or girl style) wun work on guys.. words r impt.. words can kill n svae a relation of urs.. the point tt i'm trying to get to u girls is.. if ur bf is nt an wei-ing in any case.. dun blame them or get angry.. cuz is our nature.. also.. if u try to prove sumthing to him.. use words.. w/ actions... actions alone wun work on guys...

for guys nw... u guys are just so noobie... can u guys be more sentimental n more emtional to girls?... girls are emotional creatures.. being a bf.. is nt just a guy standing beside her n say, "yo brotha! this my charbo," girls are more.. so-called like a world of oni two person.. u n her.. u need to be a gd listener.. u know y there's time when ur girl wun tell u their troubles?.. cuz u're nt a good listener.. most likely girls will find girl-friends to talk abt.. cuz girls r very good lsiteners n they can keep secrets n duh... also.. please dun scold her or lecture her when there're truobles b/w u couple or troubles of hers.. u shld listen 1st n analsyt... n then.. an wei 1st.. please guys.. try to put urself in her shoes n feel wad they feel.. think of their feelings b4 u start ur lecture.. an wei them.. calm them down.. when they are calmed.. then u can tell her solutions.. wad girls need is sum1 hu listens... nt practical solutions.. there's time tt girls doesnt even need soltions.. they just need sum1 hu can share they sorrows.. they troubles.. n they will solve themselves...

for couples..
love is sumthing tt u need to support each otha.. when one has trouble n ask the otha partner to heck care u.. u know how the otha partner feels?.. think of each otha.. also.. when ur stead is feeling helpless.. u r the best medicine.. dun feel down just bcuz she/he said tt heck care them.. this will oni worsen ur relation b/w u n ur stead.. this sumthing for problem couples out there.. so long couples!...

-written for a friend of mine n for all couples having problem communicating-

.:memories of old sweet times:.

2004-05-10T03:04:00.000+08:00

just logon to friendster.. tot of her.. when to search her mail on frienster.. found it.. saw the photos.. memories of her.. in my mind.. sweet days... remember we 1st kissed... sweet.. just sweet.. remembered the 1st time i agve her gifts.. were bought from jap while iwas in osaka.. a pig n shirt.. the pig we named it butu.. butu is pig in jap.. remembered the 1st time she said she'll hug it wheneber she went sleep.. wondering is she doing still.. i love her.. tt's the oni feeling i have.. wanted to go look for her.. but.. ai, jiu shi wei ta ren zhao xiang.. she dun wan me to show up in front of her.. so i wun.. =p bcum a secret person to tag on her blog.. the taste.. none of u will be able to know.. can oni secretly think of her.. secretly pray for her safety n such.. wad's this i'm feeling.. am i still in love w/ her?.. i'm nt quite sure.. i missed her as bad as when u missed sum1 whom u loved is far awae.. the oni different is.. the person i missed is so near n yet furthest awaex frm me..

u know wads the furthest distance on earth?.. it is the distance... tt she's infront of u n din know tt u love her... it is the disyance ... tt ur hot passionate loving heart is buried deep down a hole dig by a belowered-ice-temperature heart of hers.. tt's the furthest distance on earth..

.:the most enjoying day/nite since the start of this yr:.

2004-05-08T03:03:00.000+08:00

*note: when i say fucking is really FUCKING!!!! note for yitng: maybe u dunno me much n gt offended for the fuck wordings here.. sry 1st.. lol.. i dun think goat is so vulgar as me.. dun worrie*

LOL!!! today ESPLANADE!!!! lol.. wasnt looking forward for it at first duh.. b4 tt went lan with weiliang.. then went esplanade!!! 1st thing i tot of is.. am i i a children playground?.. lol.. cuz many sec1&2s ard.. little kids.. lol.. neway.. waited for jx cuz our tickets w/ him.. entered the audi at 1957 i think.. lol.. 3mins b4 the thing starts.. if afta 2000 we cant go in le.. haha 1st thing i do inside was thinking.. confirm will sing school song!! lol.. nxt thing.. find my dotter!!!! but i failed.. hah.. -_-'' BUT THE DANCE IS FUCKING BEST IN THE SHOW!!!! esp. the starting tt the dancers lie on the stage then do the wavy hands movement.. so nice.. wu shu nt bad too... n cchsb.. their drum.. superb.. bo wei gong.. the skits i tell u.. is the most entertain skits the cdc has done so fair.. cuz stories all damn nice.. the lightings!!! fucking nice!! the mic was like super powa cuz its hanging so high up n still can recieve those voices of choir!!! i was like.. WTF!!!.. =p.. lol.. was touched by the last part where the put down the 8 words: "Hao4 Xue2 Li4 Xing2, Zhi1 Chi3 Zhi4 Chang1".. falsh back of my days in cchms for 4 yrs.. so touching.. the fun i shared w/ my fellow friends (goat they cuz we sec1 know each otha le) n my scouts.. alos.. had my 1st love in cchms too.. so much fucking nice memories.. have sum bad 1s too.. but in the end they turned out sweet n memorable too.. cuz of those bad things happen in cchms i become more mature in thinking i think n also builds the me of today.. when singing school song.. tears nearly flow.. bo bian.. all those things just touched me.. =p the time i spent in cchms the thing i did in cchms.. the feelings i put in cchms n scouting n friends.. i din realised tt my feelinsg for cchms is so fucking deep.. really deep.. =p no doubt i alwaex told my friends.. cchms is such a fucking nice place to be in.. talk cock by the lake.. play by the lake.. saw "THINGS" ard cchms.. its nice.. just so nice.. HAPPY BDAY CCHMS!!!!

p.s: dotter.. having hard time finding u duh.. cant FIND U!!! arh!!! lol.. ne way.. gd job dotter!!! nw i know y ur knees will hurt so much.. remember hor.. ice pack.. =p

.:need new book, old game:.

2004-05-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

back to bloggy again.. y leh?.. lol.. cuz gt things to share lo.. lol.. ok.. 1st i read finsh the "Zhen1 Ai4 Gou1 Tong1 Gao1 Shou3".. a very nice book duh.. all abt communication of eva lasting love.. =p need advice..?.. ask me.. lol.. nah.. but need help then find me.. going to re-read the whole book.. lol.. but nt nw.. need a new book.. maybe will gt the "Ren2 Ji4 Gou1 Tong1 Gao1 Shou3" or the "Ji1 Li4 Gao1 Shou3".. hmm.. the author kinda funny.. really learn lotsa of things frm there.. then also did lotsa refelctions of wad i did b4 in my last bgr.. =p of cuz there sda moments wheni read the book also gt huang3 ran2 da4 wu4 momnets too.. neway.. think of blog those contents of the book here.. how u all think? tag in my borad for comments..

nxt.. back to GB.. LOL!!.. kinda boring also.. play for fun but nt play for win.. but tell u wad.. the noob zone is no longer noob zone ne more.. it's filled w/ smurf (pro chicks) like me.. =p lol.. but so long nv play liao.. rusting duh.. neway.. winning rate is increasing cuz played too much warcraft so i play GB w/ strats.. LOL.. which sumhow 70% works for all games.. like gang-bang (last time strat duh) or sumhow rather funny 1 like stick to the opp so he cannot hit u.. but u can hit him.. (use ultra high against wind if u all know wad i mean)

hmmm chersiong gt a blog.. which is boring.. =p typical diary blogger.. nt like mine.. full of reflections n views.. rite?.. i'll link him up.. so u all can go check.. bt warning to u all.. PREPARE A PILLOW N BOLSTER!! his blog is like a 400-450 words essay.. =p which is boring.. u read u know.. lol..

.:bloggy sleepy time:.

2004-05-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

song bo!! slept like 11hrs todae?!! lol.. cuz ytd morning early wake up duh.. lol.. last nite slept 3+.. woke up 2pm++.. lol.. ne way.. signed up for online tuition angency.. hope they faster contact me..

.:dOtX:.

2004-05-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

dotting all day long.. how i wish poly faster start n WCG faster come n i faster go call the tuition agency to find ppl to tutor.. lol.. cuz need money to buy comp parts.. my comp is died.. trying to revive it.. lol..

.:lOaDiNg:. nOthinG..

2004-05-02T03:33:00.000+08:00

nothing in this will eva gona change me.. just relised tt.. lol.. i'm still myself.. crappy as alwaex.. i'm a scout.. duh is venture scout nw.. but still scouting.. i'm still a guy.. (of cuz -_-;;) lol.. i'm still continue to care for her.. duh there's chio girls here n there.. i'm still sticking to my pt tt i'm faithful.. to friends/stead(nt at the moment)/family.. also.. i'm still telling friends really stead fast break fast if i think they cant last.. nuthing eva WILL chnage me.. maybe.. as time goes by.. i'lll add more things to myself.. but i'll keep the original.. so nuthing of me is gona change.. i'm still loving her.. n my heart is locked.. maybe the only change it will occur to me is.. 1 more girl will be the key of my heart n open up.. =p

dunnoo u all und nt.. lol..

tHuNdEr 'n' LiGhTnInG.. .:tragedy:..:lOaDiNg:.

2004-04-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

todae.. thunder.. lightning.. those are wad she scared of the MOST.. saw the first lightning.. tot of her.. worried whether there's sum1 trying to calm her down.. hope there was.. heard the 1st thunder.. worried she was shocked by it.. just realised.. i'm nt xin tong.. reason being.. i'm too used to it.. until i ma mu le..

n other tragedy happen in s'pore..

WC3 real training... .:loading:.

2004-04-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

haha.. i finally found me match.. =p.. found a 16yr old guy to train w/.. i cant say i'm proer or he proer.. cuz we played like 4 matches.. its 2-2.. neway.. i lost the 2 cuz i was playing in the dark.. u shld know.. human dun have much confidence in the dark.. =p of cuz i made careless mistakes duh.. tried out new strats.. =p.. hmmmm maybe get goat to play w/ himura.. lol.. neway.. i lost is nt thrashed.. is close i shld say.. =p finally... there's a light infront of me leading to my dream WCG..

kOrEa iS fAr yEt sO neAr

2004-04-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

wah kao.. todae i just watch a warcraft vod.. erm video of warcraft basically.. =p.. its korean one.. KNOW WAD!!! they have offcial wacrcraft tv programmes!!!! wah kao.. how i wish i'm in korea... i can see their vods here but just cant go n see myself..

.:loading:. why?

2004-04-26T13:03:00.000+08:00

just watched laing2 shan1 bo2 yu3 zhu1 ying1 tai2 ytd =p.. its a sad story as u all know.. they died n turn to butterflies.. =p.. i gt very sheng1 gan3 chu4 after watching.. i was thinking y parents are so... against we youths having BGR in our age?.. wad's the problem with it?.. firstly.. we have our human rights.. we have our own freedom.. i mean.. we r alreadi 17 (applies to 16++ ONLY)? we r old enuf to think... unless u r nt tt matured yet i dunno.. its our rights to have BGR, we have our own freedom.. n y parents are still going against it?... also.. i found a contridicting point.. no bgr = no marriage = no children.. they y our parents have us?.. kinda funnie right?.. maybe u'll say tt in future parents will let u have BGR... BUT think again.. sum of parents of my friends, they do nt allow they to have BGR till the age of 20.. i was like WTF?? neway.. i think if parents restrict then it shld only restrict till the age of 18.. =p cuz 18 is the legal age to get married i think. haha.. i haven't finish.. when parents restrict u.. u may have a fear of getting a stead in future.. a so-called shadow will leave bhind n u fear gettiing a stead while one alreadi bcumz 18.. u'll gt a stead.. bt nt telling parents.. does it proves my formula?.. no BGR = no marriage = no children.. agree?

liang shan bo and zhu ying tai died n became butterflies.. in searching their new happiness as they gained freedom to love.. freedom to move.. freedom to be together forever... i'm very fortunate to have so-called open minded parents as they allow me to have BGR... n bcuz of tt.. i learn lotsa lesson thru BGR.. lotsa of things.. n made me more matured.. =p

sAd .:loading:.

2004-04-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

just watched liang shan bo n zhu ying tai the movie.. channel eigth.. i gt hen3 sheng1 hen4 sheng de4 gan3 chu4.. evry family has children.. n evry children or we can say youths.. youths WILL HAVE er2 nv3 si1 qing2.. n y parents will alwaex object to it?.. y youths nowadays, in this open society, still dun have say in having relations or BGR... we have our rights.. we have our life.. we have our emotions, feelings n thinking.. parents shldnt relate our BGR to sumthing tt will harm us!.. i alwaex have this so called jia4 zhi2 guan1 tt when we insist on our stand doesnt mean tt we dun listen to our parents..

futher more.. no BGR = no marriage = no children.. then how our parents have us?.. isnt it mao1 dun4?

in the movie.. liang shan bo n zhu ying tai died.. turn to butterflies.. they gained their freedom to love... gained they freedom to fly freely.. i'm very fortunate to have parents tt doesnt go against we youths having BGR.. i'm very lucky..

WC3 todae

2004-04-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

todae.. finally gt sumthing to add.. lol.. GaoTaMaDeNai todae came n talk alot of his khakis thingy.. kida funny but also learn w/ stuff.. on shld nt be wang en fu yi.. or nt u gt sweared by the en ren like hell!! lol.. guz GaoTaMaDeNai did it todae just bcuz ngee ann sce din invite him for campfire.. reason y DeNai sweared them is cuz DeNai is so-called the leader who bring Wichita (ngee ann scouts) up.. =p

neway.. went to lan.. played w/ games.. then played w/ keatmeng.. lost 2 him 1st match.. i was like wtf.. cuz alot of small small little things i did it wrongly n thus lost.. 2nd match.. i won.. -tink tink- cuz basically i din do much careless mistakes.. n i use otehr strats to counter him.. notice tt keatmeng oni have 1 strat oni.. so ez to defeat i guess.. or maybe he gt otehrs just din show.. haha.. 3rd match.. he say wanna go liao.. i was like wtf?.. cuz is like 1-1 cant really show hu more pro.. neway i let him go.. lol.. went to bnet n do so laddering.. know wad? 5 matches i all lose... now y?.. cuz the host was like f***ing lag.. =p.. or maybe i'm nt use to the bnet lagness.. lol.. cuz play lan wun lag.. bt gt i guy say i noob.. maybe he's really pro la.. i dunno.. also new to WC3 bnet.. so i said yup i'm noob.. =p i've very gd liao ok.. during match i gt say gg hf... = good game have fun =p.. haha

ate liao go lan w/ weiliang again.. =p then 1v1.. i lost.. reason wise.. i was sehing.. going to peng liao.. nt conc.. my imbal warden died like 3 times?.. lol.. neway.. weiliang dun like to play 1v1.. so we played on 1 match.. then when to play w/ a kid.. played TD.. the kid was like.. noob.. can see la.. nvm blame him.. =p help cover his ass lo.. or nt we'll lose.. =p.. he keep asking for gold.. i was like.. wth... he quited half way duh.. cuz me n weiliang like ignoring him.. haha..

laLalaLa... haven been updating me bloggy

2004-04-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm hi guys.. kinda nv update me blog.. know the reason?.. cuz nuthing much happen in my life lately.. me dotter is ok le.. then dotter also nv update bloggy liao.. also 'she' also nv update liao.. =p... kinda bored... just me n my computer n my wc training.. haha.. nw u know wad?.. currently wc NE raceis like suck to the horde.. so maybe i'll play undead.. which evry1 saying 3 UD heros > all.. lol.. ciao..

current status loading up... =p .: becuming crafter :.

2004-04-22T11:51:00.000+08:00

nw currently training al war crafting duh.. =p.. sumhow i think i improved haha.. nw thinking bad.. tink i use back NE is betta if i wanna go s'pore WCG.. orc kinda.. nt so shu lian.. haha.. NE i can have decent micro duh.. haha.. n i finally learnt wad's rushing man.. lol.. n harras.. n use of scrolls to protect my army.. haha.. i think tt scrolls are pretty those life savers in wc3 man.. i played for like 3mths then know the use of scrolls?.. lol.. think i shld look at more top replays nw..

wondering.... -bubbling from my head-

2004-04-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

wondering how's daugther knees le.. wondering how's jiyang n stead.. wondering wad is she doing.. wondering if she knows hu's NiTeWaLkEr.. wondering.. wondering.. wondering why the hell i'm still thinking of her.. wondering hu's Alvin.. wondering if she likes Alvin.. wondering lotsa things.. sad in the moment.. yess933 help me wonder off my mind plz... =0[ (T_T) wondering y i cudnt be de 1st person she tot of when she's feeling low... wondering..

haiz...

2004-04-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

nw mum keep nagging abt electricity... den blame me for using the comp too much.. it was like.. wtf?.. she keep saying 5-room flat lower than us.. then its like she on the air-con alot.. then gt 1 LADY keep using hair dryer!!!! lemme explain.. dryer's volt > air-con's volt > comp's volt... sianed... tt lady is nt me mum for info.. its me cousin.. nvm.. xi guan jiu hao.. nvm... make her happy.. use lesser comp.. =p..guai rite?.. actly nt.. just dunno wanna hear her nag.. =p..

neway.. currently keep so-called training w/ my comp on warcraft.. training orc n NE.. hmmm... orc rulz all man.. haha.. NE is like fast rush.. but orc was like.. quite slow.. as compare to NE i mean.. haha.. hmmm really need human player to train man.. haha..orc > NE.. =p.. but orc tauren chieftain > UD 3 heros.. haha.. trying to train on tt.. haha.. 4k.Grubby is damn pro.. tauren abuse.. nvm.. think daugther dunno wad i talking abt.. haha.. hmmm.. sianed.. goat dun play wc liao.. hmmm.. maybe need km's original copy.. km say can lend me.. cuz i told him i going for WCG.. haha.. =p.. i mean Singapore WCG...=p

P.S: hmmm.. wad was i going to say?.. eh 4gt.. nvm.. lol.. cuz talking to cosuin then laugh 4gt liao.. lol... OH!!! i remember... if u suspicious abt the dryer's volt thingy.. u all can go experiment la.. haha.. cuz me n me cousin siao siao de.. went to experiment with the volts.. =p

sAturdAy was like.. bored?.. tOdaE still bored

2004-04-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

ytd was like.. sian dao aoh aoh... lol.. go sch quite late la.. reach there ard 9+.. neway.. go find jiyang they all.. then me mei came.. n other YA (young adults = guiders = leaders for guides) neway.. we talk cock sing song abit.. then me really go talk cock sing song w/ me boys.. then is like.. they sux... -_-"" cheer also dunno wad's cheer.. lamer.. neway.. FDI n FDC.. FDI was like.. wtf?.. we failed 1 of the instructor n the instructor nt happi say wan test again.. then instructor's leader come.. AVSL sumore... look like a-beng.. nnb.. see him i damn fucking buai song.. kaobei so much like he's the instructor.. neway.. WE FAIL HIM AGAIN!!!!! cuz he really suxor....

went to eat w/ guides... its was like.. wtf??.. shant mention abt it.. goat u wanna know ask mei kie?.. haha.. nvm.. went to RI cf.. which is nt a cf duh.. cuz there's no fire.. bt keatmeng say RI02 gt cf bt nt 01.. so neway.. scouts sux in cheering w/o me leading.. dun they grow up n depend on themselve?.. basically.. i'm too old for ccampfire liao.. yong teck ask me stay.. then i xia lan him.. know wad i say?.. lol.. 'i dun lead a campfire w/o a campfire...' haha.. meaning tt this campfire dun have fire.. its just a fucking big party..

then went to play lan w/ keatmeng n weiliang.. till 2300++ haha.. on the way to lan shop.. me n km dicuss lotsa wc strats... hmm then he say wanna intro his fren to me.. then maybe his fren n me could play a showmatch of 1v1.. =p.. but i was thinking.. lemme beat yong teck n weiliang b4 i go showmatch.. haha.. yongteck skills i dunno la.. but i think i'll thrash him.. i even thrash jiyang liao.. from me view.. yongteck skills is lousier than jiyang ba.. but weiliang.. he's pro.. y?.. cuz he started lan gaming since K2.. he gt foundation.. neway.. i'm going for singapore WCG (world cyber games tournament).. so need human players to train w/.. playing w/ comp is sick la.. lol.. hmmm think me daugther wun know wad i talking abt.. me mei also.. oh ya.. me daugther say she cudn't regon me when i in V-uniform.. kinda strange.. do i look veh diff?.. lol.. neway.. i oni know... when i'm in uniform n gt angry... i'm devious.. beware~~~~~

hMMmmz... think she knows...

2004-04-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm went to her blog.. gt 1 of her fren ask me fuck off cuz i mention bitch... n the 'bitch' i mentioned is the 'bitch' in her blog.. =p.. think her fren misunderstand i call her bitch WHICH I NV WILL!!!!!... haha.. i said sry.. din get angry (rythmes.. lol).. which is quite a miracle.. =p neway.. she said she thinks hu am i n said i'm playing game.. i said i'm nt playing.. but she still thinks i playing.. neway.. I'M NT PLAYING!!!!!! juz concerning.. =p she said she'll get pissed.. hope nt.. i also asked her hu am i.. =p.. HOPE SHE GT IT WRONG!!..

ccHms spOrt day!!!

2004-04-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

hmmm... guess wad?... i'm burnt.. lol.. red all ova.. but tt's wad i wan!!.. wan me darker.. lol.. neway.. todae cchms nt bad la.. a few featured race... 1st... 4x100m B boys!... we gt 2nd!.. first was cchms leading.. then got up by ngee ann.. then becum 2nd.. then DH ovatake.. i was like.. wtf?.. nvm.. last batan.. its ALOY!!!!! he was catching up.. 2nd.. then 3rd.. then its like 1m b4 ending line.. ALOY CHIONG!!!! the china DH was like fucking shock??!! lol.. know wad aloy say?.. he say, "he ova take me at first.. nvm.. act so seh.. let's see hu's the winner at the end".. lol.. play strats sia.. ok.. 2nd featured race 20x100m or 200m i 4gt liao.. cchms was like thrashing DH n Temasek big time man.. the distance is like.. 20m or so?.. lol.. gt gold.. song bo?..

hmmm... also saw daugther la.. she seems ok.. ask her ok.. she say ok.. then ok lo.. so i din talk much of my da dao li... lol.. or other words i din say ne da dao li at all.. =p.. quite sian nw.. dun feel like typing.. tml i cont.....

bAcK w/ sumthing u shld noe.. :0) ~crushes~

2004-04-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

these few days nt much happen in my life but lots happen in my mind.. =p.. just lsat nite i think.. i chatted w/ me jie.. dun ask me hu's my jie if u still in cchms.. unless u me daugther.. =p.. she told me abt her so-called new crush since her last relation which ended last yr.. dun ask me when.. she said she wun do ne thing even duh if she really likes tt guy (how fortunate tt guy is).. =9

k... crush.. every1 have crushes.. me u evry1!.. but wad's crushes? a crush = infatuation maybe from there will becum LOVE.. so wad abt having crushes?.. having crush is nt a bad thing as long as u dun treat it as love.. crush not equal to love.. (listening to yes 933 hahahaha 933 rulz) sum ppl treat crushes as love.. but they made a very big mistake.. so like i say.. when one has a crush DUN try to stead immediately.. the way to face a crush is to remain as friend first.. then slowly ask ur heart whether if its love or infatuation.. =p.. maybe i'm crapping.. haha..

my dear goat fren todae.. hmmm no.. nw is 1am liao.. so its ytd.. so bloody suay.. dun wanna elaborate much.. cuz of privacy wise... just an advise.. please take note of the time when ur parents cuming back.. =p -tink tink tink- u shld know wad i mean la goat fren...

nw lets turn my views on my baobei daugther.. y i left it last is nt bcuz she kinda nt important.. but cuz i'll be typing long i think.. this some sort of letter to daugther la.. haha.. here i must say tt no 1 knows hu's me daugther.. so daugther.. when reading this.. i garantee no 1 knows hu r u.. -wink- here it goes...

girl ah.. 15th yr of ur life.. from POV.. u r nt really happi.. maybe even nt happi cuz u gt such a busy body papa.. haha.. i just wanna give u sum pointers ba.. sum words i said to 'her' in 'her' blog b4.. evry1's life.. there's alwaex ppl getting in n going out of ur life.. there's alwaex sad n happi things.. sour n hot things... dun make urself too miserable.. a person life is so short.. at most give u until 80yrs old n u'll be in the coffin say bye bye.. y nt stay happi.. i know ezier said than done.. but when u realised tt nw u r sad has gt no use.. u'll also realised tt u're stupid.. y b a stupid person?.. u're a chung chengian lo.. also.. xiang ai jiu ai, wu pa you cuo. you ai you shang, wu fa bi mian. ai yuan yi liao, wu xu ku qi. =p.. hope u understand.. i dunno u can read nt la.. but when u see this.. dun understand.. call me or msg me.. =p.. also.. when a guy is so cruel to maybe reject u.. maybe his has his own problems to solve?.. parents?.. study pressure?.. u told me le.. its ur crush.. its just infatuation.. even duh i dunno hu's ur crush.. i haven seen him.. i haven saw his character.. so i cant say u n him will last nt.. also.. u haven tell me wad u really feel abt him.. so i cant say u dun really or really love him.. i cant have ne conclusion.. =p.. jia you ba wo de baobei daugther.. =p

BoReD 2 BlOg: rEfLeCtIoNs

2004-04-12T18:29:00.000+08:00

so sian these few days.. after the BH.. hmmm sianed... think she know i hu's nitewalker le.. just 50-50 oni la.. neway... just did sum reflection on the book i read.. the book is "Li2 He2 Bei1 Huan1 Zhong3 Shi4 Yuan2" buy Liu Yong =p

i've been thinking alot.. i've thinking the past mistakes/ things i did in my relations.. i gt sum conclusion.. loving sum1 is nt for the sake of wanting love.. but for the sake of loving sum1.. understand? lol.. if nt.. let me explain.. k wanting to love is like u want to get into relationship for wadeva reason u have.. such as just broke up need new love for subt.. or maybe peer presure..=p.. if u love sum1 for the sake of wanting love.. this result in liang3 bai4 ju4 shang1.. if he loves sum1 for sake of wanting love.. he'll face problems such as xing ge bu he.. n also have some sort of worries/ trouble tt is nt necessary.. lets go to the person whu really love the abv person.. he/she will get broken heart.. will have a deep deep wound inside he/she.. which maybe wun heal foreva.. n have yin ying of a bgr...

lets go to a couple hu truly love each other.. frm my point of view.. both parties have a very great n heavy responsibilty for the relation tt they started.. sumhow when a new couple start on their sweet relation.. things come damn wel for them.. but after awhile.. both will start picking err on each other.. nw this a time tt responsibility comes in.. if u r picking err its ok.. but u must think.. if u dun like his/her action of sort.. wad for start the relation?.. right?.. so be responsible for starting the relation.. i'll take campfire for an example.. at first the fire is burning great.. but after awhile.. fire become smaller.. to miantain it u must put in more wood.. same as relation.. its both parties to motivate each other to continue w/ the relations.. to me.. a relation is nt mean to be borken but to continue till the day one dies.. both need to motivate.. both need to have commitment.. it takes two hands to clap.. if oni one party is feeding the fire, he/she will get bored soon.. bcuz deother party is nt giving any reaction or maybe hints to the person feeding fire.. in order to maintain it.. bothe parties should feed fire together.. either together or simutaneously.. =p.. its best both feed the fire together.. =p

lastly.. ppl reading me blog.. if u have frens love ppl for the sake of wanting love.. plz tell them this.. "stead fast, break fast" lol.. or if u have frens hu r really loving each other.. wish them happiness.. n maintain it.. also.. remind them.. if they wan a good campfire.. feed the fire together.. =p

wtf??!!! i cant imagine i type so mucccch!!!.. maybe sum of u will say its crap la.. lol.. neway.. if u think its crap.. then dun read lo..

BloGGing returns...

2004-04-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

sry guys!.. came back to blog duh.. haha.. past 3 days was like.. damn busy abt the BH.. kinda tired liao.. lol.. lemme tell u sumthing str.. i saw things in the 2nd night when i hike duh.. i'll nt reveal it here la.. later me daugther see le scared scared.. for more information.. plz contact nitewalker.. LOL!!! neway.. its small thingy la.. lol.. str. to the pt.. the last nite hike was nt bad.. cuz all sec3.. then Anthony(Ant) freaked out.. neway. gd hike..

then tonite.. is sec1s.. sum really did freaked out.. but ended nicely.. these 3 days.. i learn things frm albert la.. but the thing i learn or i shld say i realised from him tt.. scouting really builds me..

let me explain.. (cuz albert was like talking to those freaked out ppl, he said scouting builds him n still building).. when he said tt... i realised tt just 'scouting' the word really builds me up.. if i NEVER join scout.. trust me.. i'm now still a bloody sissy sleeping at home n behave like girl.. =p.. cuz when i was a little boy.. i'm GIRL!!.. nt say girl la.. but rather weak.. so pri sch i started to join.. the teacher asked y i join.. i answered.. i wan to be independent.. which is how i am now!!.. can u imagine?.. just the word scouting change my life.. i was damn freaking weak when i was young.. run abit wanna vomit.. but scouting trains me up.. help me to become more mature in thinking.. n also the character in me... in fact.. in me pri sch.. P1 or 2, i was damn freaking selfish.. =p.. but scouting teach me wad's brotherhood.. just like nw.. jiyang weiliang jason junxiang all my buddy!! even ex-scout MZ and shawn.. we r rather close frens.. dun u agree?.. lol.. so i became more so-called 'open'.. but.. just 1 thing i din open to them.. the real me.. =p.. haha.. neway.. scouting rawks the heaven!!!same to guiding.. i bet jasmine limgim n letitia they all feel the same.. guiding rulz!! but cchms guides rather crazy.. scream here n there.. just like me mei.. lol.. neway.. enuf of it le.. =p.. so long folks!..

lOOk aT tHe nEw sIde of MaCriChiTe

2004-04-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

(i'm quite seh when i typing this duh.. n u all know my eng sux duh.. so sure gt alt of speeling mistakes)
phew todae was like... SEH!!! nt SEX!!! lol.. morning wake up damn early to go 4 medical examination.. reached there.. still seh.. then know wad?.. the nurse call me for 3 times then i know she calling me.. lol.. i was like so ma lu.. cuz there's lotsa ppl there.. kinda sianed.. lol.. then know wad?.. i filled the form rongly.. lol.. i go fill the female section where females declare whether they gt menses cramp.. heng i shade N.. lol.. the doc told me gt 1 guy shade Y.. i was like luffing inside like dnno wad shit.. then finish w/ the check up.. lol.. then going down the escalator.. then i realised i was so damn seh.. i walk to the go-up escaltor.. nearly fell.. i was like wtf w/ me.. reach hm sleep..

then woke up at 1300.. warcrafting abit.. then go karate.. then.. karate was like normal.. just tt the target training was like... damn choR!!!!! lol.. enuf of it.. btw.. i'll be taking part in the katta tournament.. =p

then later went to bishan mac hse meet albert n DC.. oh my way there.. i heard interesting things.. lol.. i'll nt reveal it cuz invlove my daughter.. lol.. (nw chatting to me.. say she lurve me for such valuable info).. neway.. talk alot of scouting stuff in mac.. then brief on the hike later.. i refer it to black hole.. BH for short..

BH.. when to macrichite.. i dunno how to spell like refer to M.. reach M.. then albert brief us.. (gt me albert WL n jason).. then albert lead the BH hike.. it was like reallying fucking BH!!! cant even see my fingers at times!!!! i was like.. wtf?... worse then cchms cca block.. lol.. along the way.. we r NOT allowed to mention our names.. we r called one, two n so fore.. cuz oh the 'thing'.. hee.. so i'm the time keeper.. we spend 37min44sec to fin the BH hike.. trust me.. aft this.. wadeva fucking hike u have.. no kick.. pardon my lang.. cuz the BH was giving the 'high' effect..lol.. when we hiking back
WL lead.. i time keep again.. jason is supposed to tell us the current time.. at first was like.. WL going slow.. cuz its total darkness.. then.. i cant see WL AT ALL.. i'm oni following his bag strap which was white.. lol.. then there's one part we all walk like penguin.. cuz following WL stepping mah(basics of grp hiking).. lol.. but finally we finish it.. tml will be station masters for the sec3 scouts.....

hmmm clarification loading up..

2004-04-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm trying to clarify la.. me nt sad duh... just.. zou yi bu, kan yi bu.. dun worrie abt me la.. i'm stronger than every1 else in love relations.. trust me.. even duh just 1 relation oni.. but i confirmed experience more things than mei, jason n jiyang.. lol.. nt being rude duh.. but i'm strong.. =p

i'm posting those is to throw out my feelings so i wun feel so miserable.. also let u all know me from the inside.. currently wad u all think of me is the outside of me.. u all gotta learn alot from me inside.. my eng sux la.. so hope u all understand wad i'm expressing.. lol.. btw.. ne love prob can find me la.. i'm nt being bhb.. haha.. even duh i dunno i'll try to give constructive comments.. hmmm... guess wad's jx gonna say when he look at this.. he'll say, "dun tok cock la.. u r lame..".. lol.. so long..

Poem: Always.. Because..

2004-04-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~
I'll always say, "I Love You "

Cuz i really care..

I'll always tell u abt my feelings,

Cuz my feelings for u r real..

I'll always hold your hands tight,

Cuz i'll always protect you whenever n forever..

I'll say, "forever"

Cuz I've planned to have u in my heart for the rest of my life..

I'll always look into your eyes,

Cuz I'll never lie..

I'll always say, "hello"

Cuz within us there's no "goodbye"..

I'll always say, "You are THE one .."

Cuz there's no "two" in my heart..

Your heart will not be locked,

Cuz i'm the key of your heart..
~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~

Dedicated to all lovers in the world.. n to the one i love..

LoadinG HappY mOOd =0)

2004-04-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

currently i'm in such a happi mood which i dunno y.. lol.. alos.. tell u a weird thingy.. 1 of my cousin when sleeping w/ aircon also need to on fan 1.. she's bit.. erm.. siao..?.. lol.. neway i gt 2 cousins living w/ me.. sumtimes 3.. haha.. my cf.. all my batch of sister guides!!! plz cum!! including letia poh.. whom i quarrelled alwaex.. lol.. cant leave out her amah.. cuz u guides r a gang.. a gang of.. siao charbo.. lol.. i mean during cf la.. neway.. cf planning is 30% done.. confirm need help frm guides.. noriko batch duh.. later i'll tell them when i go school for EXCO meeting.. hope the 2 bitches will agree.. =p..

CampFire coming up!

2004-04-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

lately planning the cf.. kinda wrecking my brain.. but nvm.. used brain is worth more than an useless brain.. rite?.. lol.. ok cf details.. hmm.. maybe will need the guides help.. but if the black n white bitched dun agree.. then i also lan^2.. neway.. proposal coming slowly n steady.. gonna make a nice cf man.. oh ya.. hmmm my batch ventures, tell me ur CT dates.. i wanna set date for cf.. n u know wad?.. they say date i proposed. nt the leaders set.. wtf rite?.. if i know earlier.. i plan my cf long ago liao..

P.S: cf = campfire..

A bit of Happiness finali..

2004-04-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

finali.. i can sum how talk to the person who doesnt wanna talk to me b4.. its kinda.. tag board duh.. this the best i could do duh.. cz the person doesnt wanna talk to me.. but in tag board i could ezily show my concern n nt letting the person know who am i.. the person wanna know who am i.. but.. i told the person that," u dunnit to know who am i.. i know u, u know me.." sad rite? wanting to talk to the person u luv but can only talk under such pathetic circumstances.. but to me.. its a bit of happiness.. I love that person.. =p

P.S: she dunno who am i cz i put a nick tt she cant know tt's me on the tag board.. keep this a secret if u r viewing this.. cuz i think.. ppl hu viewing this is my close frens.. esp jx.. jx.. dun tell that person.. plz.. also.. asking me if i wanna keep this a secret so y still type out?.. reason simple.. sum of the things tt u put inside ur heart will make u miserable..

LeSsoNs w/ aLbErT lAter

2004-04-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

haha.. today.. finally i gt things to do!!.. lol.. later going to play pool i think.. even duh i broke.. maybe they help me cover up.. or i just dun play n read my book.. hmmm.. campfire n 2-day camp cuming up!.. hmmm gonna chiong my PSA liao.. hmmm.. my blog nt alot of ppl know sia.. lol.. hmm hope u all can spread duh.. oh ya.. oh.. nvm..

Boring Day

2004-04-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

in life.. there's many types of day.. ranging from.. happy =).. moody =(.. crazy.. sad.. sweet.. n BORinG!!.. so its my turn to have a boring day.. kinda shit.. thinking wad i can achieve in life.. status?.. nah.. too complicated for me.. big $$.. nah.. i'm nt $ face.. excitment?.. hmm kind of.. but nt really.. love? yup.. tt's the thing i wanna achieve.. a very very hot love.. so paiseh.. my eng sux la.. so dunno how to express.. lol.. n.. love is nt enuf.. hmm.. i wan sumthing more.. u guys stop thinking abt sex ok.. i noe u guys will say sex.. bt NOPE!.. is a family of 4.. =p.. me, my wife, 2 kids.. enuf.. =p.. also.. b4 this i said i wan excitment.. yup.. but its nt those thrilling things.. bungee or wad.. is excitment in my heart.. in love.. =p.. simple.. i'm a simple guy.. =p

FDI Test Day TODAE!!

2004-04-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

kinda tired now.. lol.. morning woke up at 0630hr.. n was with sleepy eyes... then all those usual boring stuff.. in school during PT running quarrelled with lua.. lol.. long story.. wanna know can ask lua.. haha.. but scouts r like this.. quarrelled liao with patch up almost instantaneously... nxt.. the FDI TEST!!!!...

the FDIs was like.. fucked up?.. lol.. some gt study but others nt.. so some pass written sum nt.. also commanding was like nt bad.. bt sum are really as bad as stuck on a command for 10mins?.. its bullshit.. of cuz.. i think we managed to "PASS" him eventually i think.. lol.. i dun give a damn la.. its they pass nt me.. so i just gave them test..

then go eat.. BC's girl, Li Eng, wanna go eat mee siam.. or nt BC go hm pull his ears liao.. LOL.. neway.. went to parkway w/ BC couple.. then look for seats.. in the end.. no seats.. so we suggest go eat yoshi (tt time gt jason, weiliang, ziyang, tahhong n me).. so we ask BC to go.. then guessed wad? BC got hit.. Hit but his girl.. haiz... frm behind.. me n weiliang was like saying BC pa lao po.. if BC decided to eat mee siam, he really pa lao po.. but eventually.. we all eat yoshi.. BC still gt hope.. can xuan ya le ma.. later go play pool... i msged wenjin.. n she kinda lame la (she gt legs neway).. she ask me miss my daughter... (-_-"") then i hit 1 lady's butt.. just say sry lo.. but guess wad ziyang say.. he say, "wah hit ppl butt say sorrie oni ah?" i din reply him.. then i shoot.. purple ball into pocket.. then i was thinking.. nan dao yao wo yi sheng xiang xu ma?.. lol.. then went home.. sianed... later need to wake up pretty early.. lol...

P.S: BC= binchuan
FDI = Foot Drill Instructor
n wanna know why wenjin ask me miss my daughter?.. ask wenjin.. lol..

UnLuCkY dAy.. WTF??

2004-04-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

todae.. nono.. its yesterday was like... unlucky like dunno wad.. 1st thing.. go cut hair.. rain.. 2ndly.. got splash by car on my way to cut hair.. 3rd.. i tot i left my HP in the LAN shop.. then i went back there.. on my way there.. i realised tt HP was in my bag.. kinda lame.. as in i'm nt lame cuz i gt legs.. but still lame.. lol.. jiyang called me at night.. the lamest n most obvious call.. he asked me venture till wad time.. obviously.. he going to meet stead.. n obviously scouting gt no time limit.. so he asking the obvious.. n being quite lame.. lol.. n he was so happi tt his girl went to his hse.. i mean.. wad's the big deal if ur girl went ur hse n ur parents nt knowing tt she's ur girl rite?.. lol.. but no offence la.. no angwee hor jiyang..

sianed.. tml.. nono.. its todae.. gt FDI test.. song bo!.. going to fail most of the siglap ppl.. most of the cchsm ventures also will fail.. this yr FDI was like shit.. totally below standard... disappointing.. (-_-").. neway.. just polished me boots n belt.. so later my uniform shld be in better shape..

Pics coming UP!!

2004-04-02T03:48:00.000+08:00

hi guys!!.. i found a online file storage site!.. so i'll do up a banner to put on m blog to look nicer!! bt i need u guys ideals.. wad theme shld i use?.. plz b constructive hor.. even though i crap like siao..

Crazy ideal!!

2004-04-02T03:13:00.000+08:00

Thinking of sumthing crazy at this moment.... shld up put up the venture time table on a blog*spot? Reason wse is the blog*spot script is rather simple.. just copy n paste it... thinking.. maybe wil try for a wk..
yahoo too troublesome.. need do template.. lazy to do.. ventures reading this could suggest sumthing on my tag-board =p

2004-04-02T02:58:00.000+08:00

Annoucement!!!!
Plz leave ur blogspot addy on my tag board.. cuz i wanna linked up u guys nice blogs!! haha.. or can email me @ blackangel_tkl@hotmail.com
as u can see my ~Linkage of Love~ is like.. UNDER HEAVEY CONSTRUCTION!!!.. so hope u guys help me out.. also!!! spread my blog too!!!

2004-04-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

phew!.. just reach hm sia.. bit of tired duh.. (cuz of karate) lol.. went to eat.. n blah blah blah.. other boring things which i dun wanna say.. lol.. nt like others.. others' blog is like full day of wad they done.. e.g they say from woke up to brush teeth etc.. haha~ kinda sian todae.. flashes of her in my mind.. realised w/o girl my lifeis bored... hmmm maybe nt w/o girl la.. is w/o love.. my life is BORING.. lol.. ai bu ke mian qiang.. neway.. gt things to occupy my things now.. read on...

last night.. when 4 private meeting with zhiyang (my AVSL=Asst Venture Scout Leader).. then was so.. sian.. lol.. write dunno wad report la.. then discuss abt ourselves (meeting w/ jiyang they all also).. n current exco (exco is like PCEC) then find out that ventures is falling.. like avalanche.. hmmm so i tot of evry exco meeting i go see see lo.. (starting nxt week).. going to busy liao.. cuz going to so-called teach the current exco.. so will be busy lo.. n also.. met w/ GaoTaMaDeNai.. waited for him ard.. 2hrs.. then he talk alot of stuff lo.. he's Chatting Fox u see.. so talk for ard 1hr when we all haven even open our mouth.. pro rite.. he really ming bu xu chuan.. then recently started planning my campfire lo.. maybe will ask lester back to help me.. so ccls u all come to my campfire also can.. shld be ard july lo.. maybe will invite ccls ba.. i dunno.. up to my leaders.. lol.. so long folks...!! =p

2004-03-31T15:09:00.000+08:00

todae... afternoon at 1240... wenjin msg me n woke up up... lol... she said sianed dao...aoh...aoh... lol.. cuz the teacher marking things i think... lol then she slept.. bery much like me sia... as u all know my frens! i sleep almost in every periods... MIND U!! ITS PERIODS! NT LESSONS.. lol.. oni time i din sleep is recess.. bt that was like last yr eh tai ji liao.. so dun abt it nemore... later gt venture meeting... zhiyang wan me us + dinesh a.k.a GaoTaMaDeNai = tio diao on saturday.. sibei cham ah... must drink lotsa salt water on friday night liao.. haiz.. oh ya... ne kind soul hu reading this... remind me to remind jonathan ask him bring my Venture scheme n test card... i wanna chiong PSA.. hm like sian dao.. aoh... aoh... lol... so long for todae folks!... at nite maybe i'll update abit... buaiz

P.S: tio diao = will be gana tenkan/gana scolding n "KONCK IT DOWN"

2004-03-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

sian.. -_-" todae dunno y... very... vexed.. gt my poly app. form liao.. need to go medical checkup also.. kinda lame sia.. n each sem was like... 1k bucks?... actually the fees 4 1 yr was like 11k.. but i'll apply for TG:Tuition Grant... todae was like.. whole mind thinking of her?... all past memories... gd ones.. n bad ones.. all come out at once! (rythm rite? =p) haiz... sad sad day =(... hmmm.. i gt the feeling tt.. i oni love her .. wun change liao... even though i keep enlarging my circle of female frens... still cant help me frm stopping to think of her.. kinda weird.. is this true love tt ppl talking abt?.. to me.. i'm sure it is.. cant be infatuation.. bt to others... maybe they will say, " wah siao ah... girls r like clothes amahz.. change lo..." if my frens say tt... hah!! they testing my sadism sia.. so long for todae... buaiz... tag often...

2004-03-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

currently i still working out the scripts of blogspot u see... haha so i havent really complete my own custom template for it.. so if ne1 is viewing this.. i'm sorry.. lol.. also nt long after, i'll be having my own personal site, life-of-love.com
i'll have a linkage of both sites =p

2004-03-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

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